7.26.19

Day 67

Do you think people look up to you?

• Ya know, I am bittersweet about this question. On one hand, I have had people say they look up to me and it feels good, because I feel that is always a positive thing; especially when you want people to see the positive you put out there but on the other hand, I don’t want people looking up to me because I want people to be their own role model and have their own thoughts, voice their own opinions and do things that make them happy. I know when I think of people I look up to, it is based on what they do or have done to make a difference in my life or have changed the world for the better or strive to do so — and it makes me want to follow in their footsteps but put my own stamp on it. Nowadays when people think of role models, it seems they are more concerned with how someone looks physically or the amount of money they have or the lifestyle they live instead of the qualities the person has. I hope my youngest brother looks up to me in a sense that he sees my strengths and how I handle my weaknesses in order to overcome obstacles — but I hope he grows into his own person and follows his dreams fully. It seems like more people on social media look up to me (IG) vs people in my life and I want it to be the other way around, I want more people to find me inspiring in my life than I do when it comes to social media — because social media is not always a reflection of who someone is, many times it is someone portraying themselves as someone else or pretending to have things they can’t afford in order to fit in or be liked among the majority. While I always come as myself on social media, I am also a private person, so not everything in my life is exposed for the world to see and I like it like that (good or bad).