365 days of self discovery: day 51

10.23.18

How do you deal with obstacles that get in your way?

Sometimes I have to ask myself this same question because there have been times this has happened and somehow I still manage to overcome the obstacles, I have always been told ” face them head on & if something is important enough to you, than no obstacle is too hard to overcome”. Many times I find myself learning to handle each obstacle a little differently than the last, but both I’ve decided that after I have complained and suffered through the anger & possible sadness, that’s time to find a solution– Many times the challenge is worth the reward & some of my obstacles have been longer than others; in which it becomes a daily agenda to get through another day w/out giving up. How I’ve learned to handle the obstacles that have gotten in my way is to think with a calm mind and make it a step by step process. Going head on can sometimes sink your ship, so better to  have a strategy and to keep a calm disposition if possible in order to think rationally about how to overcome the obstacle.

365 Days of self discovery: Day 50

10.22.18

Day 50

Do You have Self Control or it something you need to work on?

  • I think my self control is a work in progress, I find that I’ve lacked self control many times within my past relationships and it never ended well, and sometimes even within family gatherings because of a situation arising and getting me worked up. I still have work that needs done in this area (as I have recently found out) but from where I started and where I am with it now, it has shown some form of improvement. 

Heavy never felt so good

Warm Up:

  • Seated leg curl: 4 x 25, 20 lbs
  • Kettlebell lateral lunges: 4 x 25, 4kg
  • Single leg butt lifts: 4 x 25

Workout:

  • Sumo deadlift: 6 x 2-3 (90%) 260 lbs
  • Barbell back squat: 6 x 2-3 (90%) 200 lbs

This was all I had done today because I had to get home in time to have a nap, meal prep and get around for an online Webinar (which I ended up waking up late for – only got a glimpse of 30 minutes of it) so hopefully it still counts towards my CEC’s lol. 

P.S I did a two a day today and came in to lift with a friend  — working on triceps 

You have to find time & get it done

I started Monday’s workout on a different side of the bed. I say this because normally Monday is my dynamic effort bench day but this Monday, I started with a Heavy bench day. Quite frankly it felt good & turned out well, but the only reason that provoked me to do this was when I missed Wednesday’s heavy bench day because I decided I need sleep (working two jobs can be tough) and rescheduled it for Friday but then decided I wasn’t feeling it and instead did some cardio, so I made Monday the day and got it done. I just knew it had to get done, and with that attitude, I made it priority. 

Warm Up:

  • Cable face pull: 4 x 25, 30 lbs
  • EZ bar narrow grip chest press: 4 x 25, 20 lbs
  • EZ bar row (reverse grip): 4 x 25, 20 lbs

Workout:

  • Barbell bench press: 6 x 2-3 (90%) 110 lbs

Tri-set:

  • Plate press out: 5 x 12-15, 10 lbs
  • DB chest press (neutral grip): 5 x 12-15, 40 lbs
  • DB incline fly: 5 x 12-15, 20 lbs

Tri-set:

  • Smith machine incline chest press: 5 x 5-6, 115 lbs and then back down to 105 lbs
  • Close grip DB chest press: 5 x 5-6, 60 lbs
  • DB front raises: 5 x 5-6, 30 lbs

Tri-set:

  • Seated smith machine shoulder press: 5 x 5-6, 95 lbs
  • Cable front raises: 5 x 5-6, 20 lbs each arm
  • Overhead cable triceps extension: 5 x 5-6, 70 lbs

Cardio:

  • Treadmill: 15 minutes, 3.0 incline, 3.8 speed
  • Stair climber: 5 minutes, level 7

Current Weight: 155.8 lbs

Body fat %: 22.5

BMI: 23.6

365 days of self discovery: Day 49

10.21.18

What is your reaction when you don’t get what you want?

  • Quite a funny question, due to the fact, I like to assume we have all somewhat had this happen & maybe we weren’t happy about it, but I will assume none of through a tantrum? or did we? lol. Well, growing up in my household, my mom always made sure me and my brother had what we need and most of our wants/if not all; so I never knew what it was like to go without something — and when there would be that ONE time where I really wanted something because someone else had it, and my mom failed to get it for me, I just assumed it was because we couldn’t afford it at the time and would try my hardest to not allow it to bother me (but we know people start to ask questions and so sometimes my classmates or teammates would ask me why I don’t have it, or when I would get it) and I would just make up some kind of lie or rather just pretend I didn’t give a shit about it to want it. Sometimes it helped and sometimes it didn’t & to be honest, I only remember one time of that happening & my coach would then chime in and try to help pay for it (it was a team hoodie) and my mom just didn’t have the funds right away to get it for me, not to mention it wasn’t her only priority and my coach would then ask me about it and after finding out my mom’s reason for me not having it, I don’t remember if my coach helped to afford it or if my mom just ended up paying for it later on.. either way, that probably has been the only time. Regardless, as I got older, I was then taught in order to get something I wanted, I needed to earn it with either getting a job and making money or doing something around the house that was well worthy the prize. At first it was annoying (to be fair, I didn’t get my first job until I was 18) and it wasn’t like my chores were all that hard, I was just being a lazy teen. I was really living a life of luxury, my mom did our laundry and folded our clothes, etc, hell I didn’t have to do my first batch of laundry until I was like 21 or 22  I think? lol so I can’t really say my life was hard, it wasn’t. Anyways, after obtaining my first job, and having paid for something for the first time with my own money, it felt really good to say I could afford something I wanted and then on, I kind of got used to it UNTIL I quit my job by not showing up for work & my mom didn’t find out til like later on and yeah, so I have to say, I also didn’t particularly want to work but somewhere down the line I ended up getting another job and keeping it much longer. Now that I much older than I was, and don’t rely on my mom for finances; I have had to endure things that humbled me to the point where I had to make certain sacrifices in order to obtain something I wanted, and with those experiences came a better attitude and means of handling things when I don’t get what I want. Sometimes I will still get frustrated or upset depending on the situation but many times, I shrug it off and move on.