365 Days of self Discovery: Feelings & Emotions

1.12.19

 Day 13

Do you believe crying is a healthy outlet for negative emotions? What makes you cry?

  • When I was younger, crying was a reaction I had to many things that were negative, mostly when I was trouble, I did it a lot. My mom disliked when I cried, she would always tell me to quit my crying and that crying wouldn’t get me anywhere in life. She used to say how quick I was to drop a tear.  I learned crying was not an accepted reaction in my household growing up & when I got older (high school and beyond) I started reacting with anger — lashing out with words and physically want to fight the person who was causing me to feel that way. I would cry while being angered or after being so angered because normally I was sad, or feeling misunderstood or feeling hopeless, I didn’t like talking about my emotions with anyone, so my emotions and feelings I held inside and sometimes it would cause me to erupt after a while. Now, I will cry when I feel some form of depression or sadness coming on, or on my period and hormones are going crazy, but it usually take a lot for me to cry — now I am more apt to respond with anger or I will ignore the person/situation all together to avoid getting myself too worked up. If I do cry, I prefer crying alone vs crying in front of others; especially in front of my mom. I don’t like having people witness me cry. 
Personally, I think crying can be used as a healthy outlet for those of us who have a hard time talking about our emotions/feelings with others, sometimes crying is what keeps someone from viciously attacking themselves or other people, it is their way of letting you know they have reached their limits. However, I do believe that crying doesn’t help solve problems, doesn’t make the pain go away — it might numb it for a small amount of time, but once you have stopped the crying it comes back, so, eventually we all have to learn to face the situation head on & find coping methods that are better suited. I cry when I am sad: death, fear sometimes, depressive episodes, certain songs that trigger flashbacks or bring back memories that are sad, pain (physical and mental pain), and sometimes guilt. 
 
What are your opinions on using crying as a healthy outlet for negative emotions, good or bad idea? why do you feel this way? what makes you cry? or are you the kind of person who doesn’t cry? 

Week Four No Deadlifts Day Two

Thursday

Warm up:

  • Kneeling hip stretch: 4 x 15 seconds each side
  • Hip circles: 4 x 25
  • hip abduction: 4 x 25, 45 lbs
Workout:
Superset:
  • Kettlebell goblet squat: 5 x 8-10, 10 kg
  • Kettlebell plie squat: 5 x 8-10, 16 kg
Superset:
  • Linear leg press: 5 x 8-10, 298 lbs
  • DB jump lunges: 5 x 8-10, 1 x 20 lbs, 4 x 30 lbs
Superset:

  • Seated leg extension: 5 x 8-10, 60 lbs
  • Seated single leg curl: 5 x 8-10, 30 lbs each leg

Week Four Bench Day Two

Wednesday

Warm up:

  • One arm bentover DB row: 4 x 25, 15 lbs
  • DB triceps kickback: 4 x 25, 10 lbs
  • Lat pulldown (narrow grip): 4 x 25, 40 lbs

Workout:

  • Barbell bench press: 5 x 3 x 75%, 95 lbs

Superset:

  • Pec dec machine: 5 x 8-10, 50 lbs
  • Standing EZ bar military press: 5 x 8-10, 50 lbs

Tri-set

  • One arm DB rows: 5 x 8-10, 35 lbs
  • Bench dip: 5 x 8-10
  • Assisted pull ups (wide grip): 5 x 8-10, 120 lbs

Week Four no deadlifts

Tuesday

Week four of this program I am following for deadlifts is all accessory work but I decided to keep squats around for compound lifting purposes — but it feels good taking a small break away from deadlifts to allow my body to recover faster and more efficiently. 

Warm up:

  • Body bar goodmorning: 4 x 25, 3 lbs
  • Hip circles: 4 x 25
  • Hip bridges: 4 x 25
Workout:
  • Barbell back squat: 5 x 8-10, 135 lbs
  • Box squat: 5 x 6-8, 185 lbs
Superset:
  • EZ bar goodmorning: 5 x 8-10, 40 lbs
  • Reverse hyperextensions 5 x 8-10, 25 lbs
Superset:
  • Cable pull throughs: 5 x 8-10, 40 lbs
  • Seated leg curl 5 x 8-10, 
Superset:
  • Kettlebell overhead lunges: 5 x 8-10, 8 kg
  • kettlebell swings: 5 x 8-10, 12 kg

365 Days of Self Discovery: Feelings & Emotions

1.10.2019

Day 11

Do you do well with change?

  • In the past, growing up, I hated change. Now, change doesn’t bother me as much, if at all. At first I am always skeptical when change happens, but then I learn to adapt to the new changes (assuming it is a good change). I prefer being on a routine, because it helps but change is learning to go outside your comfort zone at times and I’ve had to do that. 
Are any of you against change, does it scare you? Share your answers in the comment section.