365 Days of Self Discovery: Health & Well-Being

8.16.19

Day 8

How do you feel about others seeing your body? For example, at the beach?

  • My only issue with exposing my body is the initial response of having to undress into my bikini (taking off the clothes that hide my bikini) but once I have fully revealed myself to the public within seconds, my main focus changes from worrying what others think to worrying about how cold the water is, LOL. It does take me awhile (a lot of contemplating) to even get to the point where I am in my bikini, many times it takes someone else to urge me to get into the water before I even consider it. The only other time this would bother me is if I notice someone staring or watching me the whole time, it gives me anxiety and makes me feel uncomfortable ( I know people will glance ) but I don’t like when people stare. Many people see me as someone in great shape but I don’t always see that through my eyes and it makes me more self conscious.

365 Days of Self Discovery: Health & Well-Being

8.15.19

Day 7

Are you comfortable looking in the mirror?

  • I haven’t always been. During my junior and senior year of college I struggled with looking in the mirror and even when I was younger I didn’t particularly enjoy looking in a mirror so I carried the habit of avoiding mirrors through my adulthood (unless I HAD to). It took a professor of mine to make it a habit of me having to look in a mirror while exercising to watch my form and technique — before I could do it at the gym & it not bother me. At the time, it was due to my weight gain that I avoided the mirrors and didn’t particularly enjoy seeing myself in the mirror because it was like a constant reminder that I looked gross. I had never had weight issues growing up — always been healthy and lean / so when this happened it terrified me and angered me and gave me anxiety and made me more self conscious about my appearance overall. Now, I have my days where I avoid the mirror in general besides when lifting out of habit when I don’t feel or look the best (but doesn’t have much to do with my body) more so, my overall appearance & I don’t like looking at myself in the fitting room mirrors [[ never have]] because they all differ and many times give me a bad perception of how I look compared to how I feel. 
I have never been comfortable looking in a mirror, so now that I feel more comfortable doing so when I need to or when lifting at the gym, I feel I have come a long way from that fear — and it shows my growth and trying to overcome an obstacle of self worth. 

365 Days of Self Discovery: Health & Well-Being

8.14.19

Day 6

Do you get enough exercise?

  • Yes. 

365 Days of Self Discovery: Health & Well-Being

8.13.19

Day 5

Do you lack energy? If so, what is causing this?

  • In the recent months I feel as though I have been lacking energy to what to do anything that needs done in my life. For a while it was because of the lack of sleep I was getting, and sometimes it pertained to the kind of meals I was eating (heavy on the stomach?) but now, I think it has caused me to be lazy and not motivated to do things that once were important to me. I have been putting things off for a long time now, keep telling myself I will make time to do it and even write it in my planner but always find an excuse to not have it done. This laziness has been bumming me out and I really want to turn it around and go back to the highly motivated and goal achieving person I once was — and I know I am capable of doing so if I make it a habit once more. This question didn’t ask for a solution to my issue, but it will take me sitting down, writing a list of goals in detail (Quarterly, yearly, monthly, weekly, daily) and coming up with a schedule that is productive and puts my priorities first & then making time for entertainment as well so that I don’t get burnt out too quickly. It is actually simple, the hard part is step 1) sitting down and organizing my thoughts without being distracted. I am giving myself tomorrow as my start date to really get things going. Wish me luck. 

365 Days of Self Discovery: Health & Well-being

8.12.19

Day 4

Are you getting enough sleep? If not, why do you think that is?

  • In the past I failed to get enough sleep, I was maybe getting 2 hours a day if that most days & now I am making more of an effort but still feel as though I am missing out on sleep due to working two jobs & one being third shift. I brought this to my doctors attention recently and she recommended some home remedies and over the counter meds that could be beneficial if necessary. I am aiming for at least 6 hours of sleep a day for starters and eventually hoping to bring it up. During the weekends, I am able to sleep in — so getting enough sleep is never an issue but during the week — it gets pretty tough.