365 Days of Self Discovery: Day 73

11.14.18

Do you have any small rituals that give you comfort? What are they?

  • No, Although, if it counts, I have a habit of checking my alarm clock before napping multiple times to make sure the time is correct and it is on — I don’t like being late for things, so I get obsessive about checking and rechecking my alarm clock; sometimes upwards 10+ times before I settle in & if at any time I feel as though it isn’t set (even though I did set it) I awake wanting to check it again for general purposes. I don’t know if this is a ritual but I find it is done to bring me comfort.

365 Days of self discovery: Day 72

11.13.18

What makes you uncomfortable?

  • I will list a few things that come to mind:
  1. Confrontation
  2. Listening to people/ having people talk to me about their sexual experiences in detail 
  3. When men flirt with me, expecting something in return (especially if I don’t know them)
  4. Being stared at
  5. shopping during busy store hours
  6. using public restrooms when other patrons are in the bathroom with me
  7. having heard/listen to people slander me or talk badly about me indirectly, talking to someone else or under their breath
  8. Getting undressed and dressed in locker rooms among other people or women
  9. period cramps
  10. Having to walk in not well lit parking lots
  11. being in a financial hardship
  12. going to parties where I don’t know the area or guest
  13. driving long distances in the dark
  14. feeling bloated
  15. having to hold my bladder due to being in conversation and afraid to excuse myself
  16. some form of compliments depending on the person giving it
I am sure many of you may be able to relate to some of the things I listed, but what about things I haven’t, what makes you uncomfortable? 

365 Days of Self Discovery: Day 71

11.12.18

How much do you love yourself right now?

  • Currently I am on this self discovery journey learning more about myself and learning to forgive myself of my flaws, imperfections, mistakes I’ve made, learning to accept myself, learning that not everyone will like me but that doesn’t make me a bad person. I love myself, but I want to love myself all the time, I want to love myself 100 percent, I want to be able to say it confidently without doubts. This self discovery journey has been pleasurable and has taught me new things about who I am and what makes me me, I’ve enjoyed it. 

Legs

Legs

Warm up:

  • EZ bar stiff legged deadlift: 4 x 25, 20 lbs
  • Hip adduction: 4 x 25, 40 lbs
  • Ab coaster: 4 x 25, 20 lbs

Workout:

  • Conventional deadlift: 6 x 6-8 (70%) 3 x 215 lbs, 3 x 220 lbs
  • Barbell back squat: 6 x 6-8 (70%) 3 x 155 lbs, 3 x 160 lbs
  • Power cleans: 6 x 3, 100 lbs

Tri-set:

  • Smith machine sissy squats: 4 x 8-10, 75 lbs
  • EZ bar walking lunges: 4 x 8-10, 40 lbs
  • Walking kettlebell toe touches: 4 x 8-10, 12 lbs

Monday’s workout

Chest Dynamic Effort

Warm up:

  • Rear delt machine: 4 x 25, 20 lbs
  • Pec Dec: 4 x 25, 20 lbs
  • Triceps extension machine: 4 x 25, 35 lbs
Workout:
  • Barbell bench press: 6 x 6-8 (70%) + 5 lbs, 3 x 90 lbs, 3 x 95 lbs
  • Barbell bench press: 1 x 1, 125 lbs 
 
  • Cable Triceps pressdown: 4 x 8-10, 1 x 60 lbs, 3 x 70 lbs
  • Cable face pull: 4 x 8-10, 1 x 60 lbs, 3 x 70 lbs
  • EZ bar military press: 4 x 8-10, 50 lbs
 
  • DB shoulder shrugs: 4 x 8-10, 90 lbs 
  • Smith machine incline push up: 4 x 8-10
  • Smith machine inverted row: 4 x 8-10